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(Written Jul 26, 2011)    

Our 19-1 Karmic Rut is the holding pattern that contains everything we did not learn – and everything we need to know – in order to evolve into a new and more peaceful form of existence. 19 exposes hypocrisy and atrocity, so that healing can occur.

1 is the number of beginnings. 9 is the number of endings..1 is the first number – from which all other numbers are formed. 9 is the last number in the numerological spectrum and contains the energies of all the other numbers. (1+2+3+4+5+6+7+8 = 3+6 = 9).

Add 1 and 9, and we have 10 – the number of significant change, innovation, and advanced solutions. When we convert the 1 and the 0 into a single digit, we go back to 1 again, but this time around, our understanding of 1 has evolved. Notice that 1 is the number that all the other karmic numbers, (13/4, 14/5 and 16/7) have in common.

1 takes.  9 gives.

The karmic energy of 19/1 is teaching us about the power of ‘give and take’ – compromise – individuals pulling together for the common good. And we are also seeing the deadlock that forms when the gap between ‘give and take’ is out of balance, in which case compromise simply cannot work. 1 is the number of self-interest. 9 is the number of giving — and something really really does have to give before greed destroys everything.

1 is the number of progress, but we are at a point in the human journey where we can progress no further until we gain the power that comes from better understanding ourselves; from knowing who we are and why we are here. 9 takes us backwards – into the past – so that we can learn whatever we failed to learn from past experience. 1 is the number of SELF.

Much of what we have to learn now is reflected in history, especially the 1800s (19th century), and the 1900s (20th century). History is repeating itself – yet again. All that’s changed are the fashions and the technology. The brutality, the greed, the wars, the imbalance, and even some of the names are the same. In all that time, we have not progressed very far at all.

The more we learn about ourselves, personally and collectively, the more aware we become of just how long and hard humanity has suffered over the course of time. Surely, by now, we have learned enough from our mistakes to want to transform this heartless patriarchal/industrial system into something that is based on love, not profit.

In the last two decades, people have learned a lot about how this system works – which is the first step to releasing ourselves from it. 1 is the number of new beginnings. 9 is the number of letting go.

1 is the number of THE SELF, 9 is the number of ACCEPTANCE. Therefore 19 offers major lessons in SELF-ACCEPTANCE. This means loving ourselves fully and unconditionally. It means recognizing our potential and finding ways to fulfill it within this physical lifetime, while respecting the rights of other individuals to do the same. Self acceptance is inner peace. It is the only means of there ever being peace on Earth.

Our inability to break through our limitations and actually reach that point is reflected in the number 19 – and manifests in the form of our own IGNORANCE – our tendency to IGNORE anything that could result in our having to feel emotions we do not like to feel. Our own ignorance does not want to get involved with anything that could upset, disturb, or inconvenience us in any way.

Ignorance is not bliss. On the contrary, ignorance is lack of awareness. When we ignore reality, our denials keep this cruel and ugly system going, and we shrug it off as ‘human nature’. This hell on  Earth in which people are reduced to mere ‘units of productivity’ is not the result of human nature. It is the result of human nature captured in the darkness of denial. There is no such a thing as a ‘necessary evil’.

Denial is a numbing place to be in. A dumbing experience. When we do look at reality and truly feel it and empathize, and react with our feelings, people tell us to keep everything ‘positive’. They say, ‘Don’t let it get to you. That’s just life.’  But, if we are awake and aware, it gets to us anyway. That’s conscious life!

“Letting it get to you… you know what they call that?  Being alive!”  Doctor Who: “The Doctor’s Wife”

A lot of things are going to ‘get to us’ as we continue our evolutionary journey out of denial into the openness of Free Will. It is not a matter of thinking positively or negatively. It is a matter of thinking and responding – realistically.

We are evolving in many ways, but most noticeably, we are evolving emotionally. We are realizing how powerful life’s feminine energy is, rather than how weakening we have been led to believe it is. 19 reveals the extent to which we have been ‘led’ to believe many things. When misinformation grasps the mind, rational thought cannot form, and the dumbing down process is firmly in place.

We have been programmed to believe that fear is the problem, when in reality, our rejection of what fear has to teach has created so many of the problems we now face on Earth. We must gain a deeper understanding of natural emotions such as fear, and all their layers, circuits, triggers, and forms of expression. It is not enough to speak of fear as if it has only one frequency, meaning, or purpose. Fear of WHAT? We need to be specific.

Sorry Franklin Roosevelt, but ‘the only thing we have to fear is fear itself’ is not quite true. When the messages that fear sends are correctly understood in any situation, they can alert us to potential harm and even save our lives! Misunderstanding of fear has caused many to believe that ‘fearlessness’ is the only way forward when in fact it is nothing more than fear of fear.

Fear is a vital part of our complete emotional range. But we do have to learn how it works so that we do not become paralyzed by it. Our blanket resistance to feeling this particular emotion is so magnetic that it is attracting the very things we fear the most but do not want to look at, talk about, or acknowledge.

Terror is denied fear, manifest. We need to face our fears so that we can pay attention to what really does require caution on our part, and learn to let go of fears that are irrational and unnecessary.

When we accept our fear of having personal power, denial loses its grip and cannot suck us back in. Each of us has power, which the system uses for whatever its purpose happens to be at any given time.  This system RUNS on the power of human energy. We give it away – we give our Will away without knowing how to survive otherwise. And right now, because the system is collapsing under the weight of its own greed-ridden top-heaviness, it is trying to suck us all dry.

By ignoring our feelings and relying only on what we ‘think’, we cannot release ourselves from this self-defeating and pointless system, in which the only consistent purpose appears to be WORK – and the pressure that comes from having to compete – often referred to as the ‘rat race’, in reference to the rat’s undignified scramble for survival.

The Will of humanity – the will to live – the survival instinct – is rising in the form of emotional energy. Our base chakra is awakening and we are starting to give it consciousness. Not that consciousness likes this state of affairs. Consciousness does not want to feel fear, or anger, or grief, and given the choice, consciousness would only feel what feels pleasant to it and discard everything else. Indeed, that is exactly what we have been doing throughout the ages. But, now, as one age evolves into another and we realize just how divided and broken we are as a species, consciousness is expanding as a result of the vibratory messages that our feelings are transmitting to it.

No one can bring us the enlightenment we need. There are no pills, therapies, or gurus for this. If we cannot make the connection for ourselves, in our hearts, we remain disconnected and we don’t evolve. It is this personal association that frees the Will of an individual. As our emotional journey continues, we are going to feel our feelings strongly, no matter how hard we try to fend them off, but we can take comfort in knowing that all that feeling is helping us evolve and become whole.

The 19-1 Karmic Rut exposes the selfishness that is in all of us. But in some, selfishness has reached the most dangerous proportions in which nothing else matters but the fulfillment of one’s own personal desires and ambitions.

As we watch our so called leaders reach impasse after impasse, and create crisis after crisis, we realize that we individuals are not meant to be led, and the purpose of government is not to control, but to create a level of balance that will facilitate humanity’s evolution into Free Will and openness. Until we do eventually learn what 19/1 has to teach, leadership as we know it will repeat episode after episode of brinkmanship, fear-mongering, dictatorship, and WAR. We must develop what it takes to independently lead our own lives. If we don’t own our own lives, we have nothing.

1 is also the number of independence – which does not mean isolating oneself from others. In fact, independence is best achieved through friendly and cooperative connections. We all need to soften our hard edges when it comes to our relationships, and let others see our vulnerabilities as well as our strengths.

19-1 karma manifests in our lives by making even our closest relationships feel uncomfortable, or in some way disadvantageous, because we are so concerned about how others may judge us. We are going to learn that judgment is a very big problem in the world and is preventing progress to a huge extent. Judgment is what guilt and blame are made of – neither of which can coexist with love. Guilt and blame seek punishment and revenge which serve only to perpetuate hatred. Love, on the other hand, seeks forgiveness and healing.

Love is the ultimate feeling. Love is experienced through feeling. Love IS feeling.

The entire emotional range from the highest high to the lowest low reflects love’s response to experience. By denying our emotions, we deny love the chance to heal itself. Denied emotions prevent forgiveness, which is the healing balm itself.

In unevolved 1 energy, we believe that competition is the way forward, but in reality it is competition that keeps this karmic roadblock in place. If we are to learn from history, we will see that competition – the need to win at all costs – is the basis of greed and war. 19/1 reveals a part of us that is never satisfied. We always want more. We want to outdo others, no matter how much we’ve already got. Comparing ourselves to others rather than simply being ourselves is the problem here – and it’s all related to competition.

When we left the 1900s and entered the 2000s, life’s vibrations changed significantly. The masculine era of competition and war ended. The feminine era of cooperation and diplomacy began. But we cannot make progress until we recognize our new position in the journey and make the necessary inner shift.

1 is the number of SELF and therefore relates to EGO, which is one’s sense of self, or self awareness. Ego is a sacred inner mechanism that enables us to recognize oneself as oneself, rather than some ‘label’ that judgment has placed on the individual. Instead of blaming the ego for everything that goes wrong, we must HEAL the ego and allow it to balance itself between over-inflation or deflation so that it can evolve with the rest of us. Until we do, the great imbalance between those who feel superior and those who feel inferior can only deepen. This misunderstanding of ego can be seen quite clearly among those who impose great hardship on the masses for the purpose of increasing their own power and wealth.

19-1 reveals hidden matters for the world to see in which the indignity of being ‘unmasked’ is suffered by those involved. If, even then, they continue to act self-centeredly, other problems will arise to compound the original problem. This is happening now as scandal after scandal sheds more light on the hidden aspects of this terribly imbalanced system we live in. Eventually, we will realize that the ‘hierarchy’ on Earth is a façade, and that all human beings share the same strengths and weaknesses and are subject to the same karmic principles. Until we understand 19’s lessons of balance and equality, we will be unable to independently plan for the future – or our plans will always be subject to the whims and dictates of others.

It is not simply a matter of creating a more ‘even playing-field’. That just changes the rules of the ‘game’ but leaves in place the principles of competition and the fight between individuals to out-do each other.  If we are ever to be the ‘ONE’ that so many of us insist we are meant to be, we must see competition for what it is: rivalry, the assumption of superiority or inferiority, judgment, and ONE-upmanship.

Let’s elevate ourselves out of the deep groove of conditioned thinking and herd mentality and become Originators again…instead of Imitators.~Oshum

We are not simple beings. We are thinking, feeling, multi-dimensional marvels, the depths and heights of which some people are so afraid of exploring that their life’s work is to keep everyone numb and dumb. There are those who will do anything to prevent humanity’s evolution towards peace, love, and understanding, because there’s nothing in it for them… (other than survival, of course, but they don’t see that).

We must be patient with ourselves and each other. We must be patient with the pace of our progress and with the details that come to light when we move more deliberately and consciously. Remember that nature moves to the rhythm of whatever time it takes…

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WHERE WE ARE – 2022 – WEEK 19

WHERE WE ARE – 2022 – WEEK 19

WEEK 19 runs from SATURDAY, May 7 to FRIDAY the 13th. This is the 7th week of a 7-week cycle in which all the Week Numbers are KARMIC NUMBERS. 19 is a karmic holding pattern that contains everything we did not learn – and everything we need to learn – in order to evolve into a new and more peaceful form of existence. Whatever we throw out there eventually boomerangs back to us – in the form of life-changing lessons.

In 1999, as I was writing my numerology-based book, LIFE CYCLES, I realized that the millennial shift from the masculine 1000s to the feminine 2000s not only changed the angle from which to study the numbers, but it was also apparent that this gigantic “switch of gear” would change the entire direction of the human journey.

Now, 23 years into the 2000s, we are caught up in a gigantic transition in which masculine 1 is feeling and fighting off the immense pressure coming from the rise of feminine 2 – an energy whose time, quite literally, has arrived.

We are in the millennium of the 2000s, the decade of the 2020s, the year 2022, and the 11/2 month of May in a 6-Year (5+2+0+2+2=11/2). Next week, we enter a 10-week cycle in which all the week numbers begin with 2, which will bring us even deeper into the millennial 2 energy.

Meanwhile, Karmic 19 has much to teach us, especially as far as women’s rights and all aspects of FREE WILL are concerned.

   1 = beginnings and forward movement.

   9 = endings and letting go of the past.

   1 is the first number – from which all other numbers are formed.

   9 is the last number in the numerological spectrum and contains the energy of all the other numbers. (1+2+3+4+5+6+7+8 = 3+6 = 9).

1 represents the individual and teaches us about the power of 1 individual to change things – for better – or worse.

1 = progress, but we are at a point in the human journey where further progress is impossible until we gain the power that comes from better understanding ourselves; knowing who we are, what brought us here, and where we are headed. 9 takes us backwards – into the past – so that we can learn whatever we failed to learn from previous experience.

 19 brings forward all that was started but not finished. And this applies to the history of the world as well as our own personal lives.

Current events are conspicuously linked to events that occurred in 1919 and 1991.

In 1919, the Russian Civil War was already underway, and resulted in the Russian occupation of many of its surrounding countries. It renamed itself the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics – or USSR. Ukraine was declared part of the USSR in 1919.

Ukraine declared its independence from the USSR in 1991The USSR itself was dissolved in 1991.

Both 1919 and 1991 add up to 20, the events of which are coming back to us here in the 2020s.

Remember that wars do not end in peace. Wars regroup, mutate, and spread. Even when a war is “contained”, it only takes a small spark to set it off again. War is not something to be won, but something to be healed. War is the deadliest hereditary disease of them all. In this system of winners and losers, the mental and emotional wounds that war inflicts can never heal and are passed on through time – generation after generation. WEEK 19 reminds us that only a complete transformation of this war-driven system can stop this ongoing terror.

Terror is the most heightened form of fear. Terrorism terrorizes people in order to control them – and our own fear then becomes the weapon that controls us. Emotion is our WILL – feminine energy. And when we can take no more, the emotion of anger rises to free the Will. The only way for real and lasting peace to occur is through forgiveness and peaceful intent – not revenge.

THE WAR ON WOMEN has always existed; it is brutal, global, and undeniable. It represents the great imbalance that we as a species must evolve FROM, if we are to survive. But those who cling to the past, terrified of change, do not believe in evolution. They believe that masculine rules feminine, including the mother herself – Mother Nature. But to create a future that repeats the past is to create an ever-deepening RUT. There’s no going back to the way we were. In an evolving world, everything must and will change.

MASCULINE SPIRIT energy is ELECTRICAL – our ability to THINK, DECIDE, TAKE ACTION, and LEAD. He is the PIONEER, and the basis of moving ahead and discovering new horizons.

FEMININE WILL energy is MAGNETIC and contains the vast EMOTIONAL RANGE – and every FEELING, SENSE, URGE, and DESIRE we could possibly have. She is the basis of creativeness, caring, choice, healing, forgiveness (letting go), and love. Her greatest power is EXPRESSION.

“… woman needs to be equal to man – neither low nor high – and for that, man is not ready, because to make the other equal means you cannot control her anymore. You cannot control an equal. Low and high can both be controlled but the equal person is free; the equal is equal.” ~ Osho

Only through masculine/feminine unity can we have the FREE WILL we are meant to have and be the FREE SPIRITS we are meant to be. In order to be our WHOLE fully-functioning selves, the masculine and feminine within us must connect and work together. Without that, there is no inner balance. And since everything starts within, our differences and inequities reflect outwardly as the GREAT IMBALANCE we are seeing and experiencing in the outer world today.

The feeling comes first, the thought follows. The thought triggers more feelings which produce more thoughts. This is how feminine and masculine work together within the physical body, to expand consciousness. Without the WILLING interaction of our electrical minds and magnetic emotions, we are not fully conscious.

Feminine emotion without the benefit of the masculine mind makes emotional expression MINDLESS. And masculine thought without the warmth of emotion freezes our thinking and renders us both THOUGHTLESS and FEELINGLESS.

The rise of the FEMININE WILL is not an aggressive move, but a response to being held back past the point where being held back is bearable. This uprising is a healing and balancing move which is necessary for survival. Feminine does not seek to overpower masculine. Feminine energy seeks equality and fairness – which IS balance.

 Free Will begins with the freedom to express outwardly what we are feeling inwardly. On the journey of life, that is what propels us. But when we deny our feelings this natural movement, it is difficult to think for ourselves and are easily led. That is what enables autocratic countries to control their populations. But it has also been spreading quickly through the fragile democracies in the world, including the USA, where books are being banned, and certain words (such as “gay”) are not allowed to be spoken. Laws are being passed which preclude any mention of occupation and slavery. When the teaching of history is banned, nothing NEW can be learned, because the past is what we learn FROM.

The USA is in an 8 National Year, (the number of personal power). On May 2, 2022, a document was leaked from the U.S. Supreme Court showing the intent of the court to reverse the Roe vs Wade decision of 1973. This would essentially give the States the right to ban and criminalize abortion – with no exceptions, not even in the case of rape, incest, or to save the mother’s life.

This takes away the right of women to make their own decisions about their own bodies and is an outright attack on feminine energy. It is also based on religious ideology, which the Supreme Court is sworn to separate itself from. The Jewish faith, for instance, stipulates that the life of the mother must always take precedence over the unborn child. Will those women now become criminals?

Masculine has always considered itself to be superior to feminine – labelling women as “the weaker sex”. In traditional marriages, the bride is “property” to be given away, while the groom is given his father’s blessing, “Who giveth this woman?” Usually her father. The word PATRIARCHY means “rule by fathers”. Traditionally, the groom promises to “love, cherish, and worship”, while the bride promises to “love, cherish, and obey”.

For as long as women’s rights are decided by men (and women who support the patriarchal system), the world will always be dangerously out of balance.

The unprecedented move by the SCOTUS places all decisions made in the case of abortion in the hands of the States. There is much talk about Civil War – civilian against civilian – particularly in the USA. And history shows that STATE’S RIGHTS, over slavery, were at the heart of the American Civil War. Is this boomeranging, too?

Of course, men are also evolving, which is to say, they are feeling as well as thinking, and their innermost intent is loving, not hateful. This has sparked even more fear among those who are tied to the old system, claiming that men are being feminized and “sissified”. There is plenty of talk about “real men” – and how courage comes from having “balls” – suggesting that only men can have courage. But that is primitive thinking. Courage is a feeling – a feminine feeling – and is accessible to both men and women. The word courage comes from the word “cœur” – which is French for “HEART”.

“A liar always knows he is lying and that’s why liars travel in packs: in order to be reassured that the judgement day will never come for them. They need each other for the well-being, the health, the perpetuation of the lie.”  ~JAMES BALDWIN

The world is awash in lies and deception – designed to take away our power to create what we want out of what we already have. To protect and expand our evolutionary potential, we must find the courage to truly express how we feel, without harming ourselves or each other – otherwise our imaginations shrink and all we create is repetition. What we honestly feel IS our honesty, and only by being honest with ourselves, can we discover our own inner magic.

The masculine MIND can get things done provided there is a path available – a means to do it. But when it comes to breaking down barriers and creating meaningful change that will hold and endure, it is the feminine emotional WILL that’s out there paving the way for the MIND to follow.

We have no idea what it is to be truly free because freedom has been defined for us by a system that depends on our not being free. WEEK 19 is likely to expose a slew of instances in which feminine energy is being seriously curtailed. WEEK 19 is likely to expose hypocrisy and atrocity, quite dramatically.

Our true potential as individuals – and as a species – is unknowable at this stage of our evolution. But as our imaginations open, we do know that it has to be much more loving and livable than the cruel insanity of current times. 19 gives us innovative 10, and 10 gives us 1 – the number of CHANGE. As rough as life is in the 2020s, awareness continues to expand, right continues to evolve out of wrong – and “CHANGE is gonna come”. We must BE that change.

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